This whole post experience was fun I guess I liked it. It was a little difficult because some days I didn't really have anything to talk about but for the most part it was cool. I liked being able to come in and vent if needed or tell a story, pretty much just talk about whatever it is I need to. Some days people really need to talk and let some things out but can not always talk to another human being, so I know from reading other people's blogs that this was a way for many to really let stuff out. The topics that were given to us gave me a lot of insight on things that I either didn't know about or made me think about different things. Most times I never really think about what's going on in other people's cultures or countries. It was also nice to read others people's thoughts for the day, I learned a lot about how people feel or things that were going on with them that I might not have ever known. This was also a nice way to get away from the normal school work and newspaper talk, it was more relaxing and enjoyable. Overall this was good and fun and I wish we could do more.

Once again I am getting really sick and tired of this whole application process. They keep sending my papers saying that they need all these extra documents about my mothers income and my dads and all kinds of stuff. Why do I really need to prove that I am poor or something for them to accept me into the college and want to give me financial aid. Its so frustrating every time they send me something I get all excited thinking its the acceptance letter or something and it never is. Why are they being so extra about. I have the good grades and a lot of other things to qualify me for a spot so why take so long. I'm getting real bored with the whole college idea because of all of this and feel like I don't even really want to go anymore. They are making it dreadful and I don't even anticipate it right now, like I know I will go but they are making me not want to I don't like the suspense.By making me wait so long I kind of feel like I wont get accepted and it makes me feel like a failure. Well that's pretty much all for today. Bye!

Why is self appearance so important to girls. Are we trying to change our bodies and perfect ourselves because it's what we really want or is it to please others and stop their ridicule. I know personally me and my friends want to go on a diet and want to lose weight but, honestly it is just for our satisfaction. We all have relationships and don't need to impress anybody we just want it for ourselves so that we make us feel better. But I do know that most girls do it just because people call them names and make comments on their weight and even though it may have never occurred to them or crossed their minds that they are "Fat" they all of a sudden believe it. It is sad really that a person can be affected so much by others and most times it is not within their control. The easy things to say would be to just simply ignore them and don't pay them any attention, but it is so not that easy I am a victim of it myself. My sister was always the thinner one and was always being compared not intentionally and it hurt so much. They would always say that she could be a model and I was just cute with my fat face. So subconsciously I began to self destructively lose weight. People can really be victims of this and i just feel bad.

I do not think that the Coca Leafs should be banned and outlawed it is a part of their religion and culture and is not something that someone can just stop doing. You would not expect a Christian to stop practising rituals, or a Muslim, or Catholic or any other religion. It is a part of who they are and you can not just ban a part of someones life. The leaf is not harming their health and does not harm anyone else so they should just be left alone. By allowing a range of religions in an one area you have to be able to accept the different practices that comes with all of them. It is not fair to stop someone else's rituals because your religion does not believe in it.

Today is FRIDAY THE THIRTEENTH and I always hear a bunch of superstitious junk sorry to say at the least. I really hate superstitions and do not believe in them at all. Not walking under a ladder, do not break a mirror or you get seven years bad luck, or how about the whole do not let a broom touch your feet or either you will never get married or you will go to jail. It is all soooooo stupid and I'm sorry if this offends anyone. I don't believe that some mirror or a broom will determine my faith. My faith is in God, so he is the only one that will decide what happens in my life and where I go. I also know that many Christians are superstitious and that does not make much sense to me at all. If your faith and strong belief in God then I think they have no business worrying about what might happen from walking under some ladder. I don't really have to deal with it a lot so I can not truly say that I am getting tired of it or something, but I do have like four managers at work who are superstitious and when it is brought up it can be very annoying. As I said before, to whom ever is reading this I do apologize if it offends anyone but I just thought that I would share my opinion about it today being what it is.

I do think that this a very serious problem and I would happen to know kind of first hand. My mother was abused when she was with my father and I had to see either his acts of abuse or my mothers outcomes a few times in my life. Its hard to deal with especially when you are young and see your parents dealing with that. It should be taken way more serious than it has been a lot of times this abuse can end in a death or bodily damage. I do also know that when someone is being abused it is not as easy it would appear to just leave. Too many feelings and thoughts are involved and to the outside person that is the obvious solution and is probably what the victim should do but it is not at all that easy. Saying this I definitely don't think that any victim should be slandered for staying in a relationship when abuse has occurred. It's a very serious topic and hard to deal with for everyone invloved and even the relatives of the two. You never really know how to help or what to say, most times people come on too strong when attempting to help out and end up pushing the vicitim towards the abuser even more. They have to be careful and go about helping the victim very diligently and get real advise and help from professionals who actually know what they are talking about. Most times one's feelings take over and drown out what really should be going on. Supposed love will make someone stay although it is clear that they are in danger. Your brain is made for thinking and making decisions, not your heart. It can only tell you what it wants, but what you want is certainly not what you need.

For the past couple of weeks I have been coming to some very important realizations. I now see and truly know now that you really can not plan out neither the way you want it or the way you expect it to. Trying to force things to go the way you want it, it never works out that way so you have to just let things happen and play out the way they are. People really can not navigate life and have things go the way you want it. Just the other day I found that when I tried to prevent something from happening it only makes it happen and even faster than it probably would have. It's very weird to see that your own self can be the cause of exactly what you did not want to happen. Life is crazy and you just have to go with the wind and be able to deal with it and accept the things that come with it. Well thanks for listening. Goodbye!

The passage about Barbie really is an eye opener. It shows how a person or a society can easily be influenced even by something that is not real and has impossible standards. the girls mom went from wanting and desiring an actual BABY doll. Something she could mother and take care of and when she got a Barbie she did not like or want it. The "play toy" was a grown lady and not fit for a child, not fit for it's purpose which was to be taken care of. You can even see today that the whole role of dolls has changed, they play house and have boyfriends and have kids of their own, they do grown up things now. Although it was not what she was used to eventually when Cher became popular she began to not only like the dolls but be obsessed with them and as her daughter grew up showed her and taught her how to love them and want them. Cher gave a new image to things and changed the way people saw things, acted, and obviously even what they played with. But just as most people while she tries to become Barbie she realized that it was impossible, her perfect skin, her make-up and body structure was impossible to achieve. Therefore she started to want to change Barbie knowing deep down inside she really wanted to change herself. Later on when someone called a Barbie she was fulfilled and was happy at the comment. This just shows how people and a lot of people can be very superficial and when an image is overly broadcast it easily influences everyone. Someone can want to change their whole image and being to strive to be something that they can not. Even models do not really look how they appear in magazines and on television, photographers use computers to alter every aspect of that person. Not knowing that people see them and strive to be just like them and they can not. Doing this it can ultimately hurt them. They go on no good diets and really do self destructive things. Its dangerous trying to be someone else, and as hard as it may be to just accept yourself people should really just try harder to and their life might be a little easier.

Have you ever just felt really lonely but you can't really figure out why? Well that is how I was feeling yesterday. I was laying in my bed and for some odd reason I just felt so lonely and sad, but I couldn't find myself to cry. It was a very odd feeling to have and I think my conscience was trying to kick in but I do not know about what, and still have yet to figure that out. This seems to happen to me a lot, I feel bad about something and for a while I don't know for what but eventually something triggers it and I figure it out. Then I find myself apologizing to people or mending things just in case I affected or offended someone without even knowing, I just always try to fix it. It makes me feel better about myself and as a person to know that there isn't someone out there holding a grudge against me or disliking me for some reason. I know I wont always be able fix every problem that I have with people but for the most part I certainly do try. However there are those people that I just kind of don't really want to and i rather just leave the relationship broken and where its at, but hey I am a girl so I guess I'm supposed to be a little stubborn sometimes.

I think that the death penalty shouldn't really be. People that are trialed and given the death penalty should just be forced to sit in jail and suffer. Killing them is an easy way out and they don't suffer the consequences that they really need to. Having them sit in an area and be in a situation that they do not want to be in they feel the pain more and can really co0me to realize that what they did was wrong and now they need to pay for it. The penitentiary is not a place that anyone wants to be in even for just a little while, so having someone spend the rest of their life in there would be more affective on that person in all forms: physically, mentally, and emotionally. when someone can not have any contact with the outside world all the people they left behind and the good part of life that they were living I think it has a much greater impact and it makes a person really contemplate what they did but before they know it it's too late and there's nothing that they can do about it. saying this I do think that these people should talk to a younger group or people headed down that path to give them their insight and let them see what can come of them and show them that that's not where they want to end up. Before they die naturally I really do think they should be used as an example for others, because some people make actions not knowing what awaits them and don't care about what can happen to them.

Sometimes I wonder if girls and guys my age really know what love is. Are we just infatuated or is there really matured feeling growing from one soul to the next. I do not know for sure but it definitely feels real and I think I speak for a lot of us. Many however let those feeling get the best of them and they do things and act in ways that they normally would not, and probably should not have. Making vast and vital decisions about your life at a young age is dangerous and not good in my opinion. Going to extreme extents to see and be with someone and misbehaving does not really prove that you have this undying love for someone, it just shoes you are vulnerable. Teen girls in particular should be careful, because nine out of ten times they are the ones who walk out hurt and disappointed and not to mention with a broken heart to be mended, and this is there downfall. After having a heart break they then look towards another immature guy to mend it. One thing that us young females should remember is to not try to get too serious and think that whoever you are with is the one you are going to marry. Leave room for change and do not let the relationship get t he best of you. Most guys our age or even older are not matured fully and are not looking for a serious committed relationship and maybe we shouldn't be ether.Let's just have fun for now and worry about marriage when we are actually old enough.

Friends are one of the most important aspects in my life, so when one if them is hurt and is very upset about something i tend to take that very personal. I try to always be there for them at any cost, in any way, and no matter what else I have going on. They depend on me as I do with them and I never want to leave with a moment where they've needed my comfort or advice and I can not be there for them. We've all been through so much together and know each other like the back of our hands. In a way and most days I think we are a major part of each other. There is not one day that goes by that we do not all check on each other if not in school or share our feeling to each other or just simply share a laugh or a lot of laughs. They are fun and enjoyable, and I always know that they can and will be my source of contentment when things are not going good, or just simply how I wish. On a sentimental level I truly do love them in a sisterly kind of way. I do believe that my life would be very harder and not to mention dull without them. I am not sure where this topic came from today, I guess it was just in my heart.

I definitely do not think there is ever a reason to help someone kill themselves, no matter how sick they are and do not want to live anymore. If anything these doctors need to be talking the patients out of ending their life and they should live their last days to the fullest. I wouldn't really classify it as murder but it is still killing another human being and it is wrong whether they wanted it or not. The doctors that are involved with this and do think it is okay should be looked into themselves because to me there is certainly something not sound and right with them. I don't see how helping a person kill themselves is helpful. Instead they should be spending time with loved ones, fulfilling last wishes and stick it out until it is really there time to go. No one's life should be taken by the hands of another at any cost.

OMG! Today I am so tired. Balancing going to school, working, doing school work and homework, friends, family, and a boyfriend I AM WIPED! I just need like a whole day really like a full twenty four hours to just sleep and relax. I do not see how I am going to be able to manage when i go off to college and i don't mean to sound negative. Well maybe i should try to take it one day at a time, go slowly and not put so much pressure on myself to get things done. But that's easier said then done. Well speaking of relaxing i have a study hall next so I'm gonna go take a nap. Thanks for listening. Bye!

I am going to a place free of stress, free of work of all kinds and free of societies pressures of desires. I just want to be content and relaxed, happy with my life and its situations. A place where i can just feel free to be me and not be judge for everything I do, every right and every wrong. A place where there are not levels or classes in the community, and people can just live without comparing themselves to each other and harshly judging themselves. Somewhere where I can always feel safe and not worrying or thinking that a certain area can be the destination of my death. I want no feelings of sadness and despair both inside myself and for others around me. I would want to go to a place pretty much like Heaven.