This whole post experience was fun I guess I liked it. It was a little difficult because some days I didn't really have anything to talk about but for the most part it was cool. I liked being able to come in and vent if needed or tell a story, pretty much just talk about whatever it is I need to. Some days people really need to talk and let some things out but can not always talk to another human being, so I know from reading other people's blogs that this was a way for many to really let stuff out. The topics that were given to us gave me a lot of insight on things that I either didn't know about or made me think about different things. Most times I never really think about what's going on in other people's cultures or countries. It was also nice to read others people's thoughts for the day, I learned a lot about how people feel or things that were going on with them that I might not have ever known. This was also a nice way to get away from the normal school work and newspaper talk, it was more relaxing and enjoyable. Overall this was good and fun and I wish we could do more.

Once again I am getting really sick and tired of this whole application process. They keep sending my papers saying that they need all these extra documents about my mothers income and my dads and all kinds of stuff. Why do I really need to prove that I am poor or something for them to accept me into the college and want to give me financial aid. Its so frustrating every time they send me something I get all excited thinking its the acceptance letter or something and it never is. Why are they being so extra about. I have the good grades and a lot of other things to qualify me for a spot so why take so long. I'm getting real bored with the whole college idea because of all of this and feel like I don't even really want to go anymore. They are making it dreadful and I don't even anticipate it right now, like I know I will go but they are making me not want to I don't like the suspense.By making me wait so long I kind of feel like I wont get accepted and it makes me feel like a failure. Well that's pretty much all for today. Bye!

Why is self appearance so important to girls. Are we trying to change our bodies and perfect ourselves because it's what we really want or is it to please others and stop their ridicule. I know personally me and my friends want to go on a diet and want to lose weight but, honestly it is just for our satisfaction. We all have relationships and don't need to impress anybody we just want it for ourselves so that we make us feel better. But I do know that most girls do it just because people call them names and make comments on their weight and even though it may have never occurred to them or crossed their minds that they are "Fat" they all of a sudden believe it. It is sad really that a person can be affected so much by others and most times it is not within their control. The easy things to say would be to just simply ignore them and don't pay them any attention, but it is so not that easy I am a victim of it myself. My sister was always the thinner one and was always being compared not intentionally and it hurt so much. They would always say that she could be a model and I was just cute with my fat face. So subconsciously I began to self destructively lose weight. People can really be victims of this and i just feel bad.

I do not think that the Coca Leafs should be banned and outlawed it is a part of their religion and culture and is not something that someone can just stop doing. You would not expect a Christian to stop practising rituals, or a Muslim, or Catholic or any other religion. It is a part of who they are and you can not just ban a part of someones life. The leaf is not harming their health and does not harm anyone else so they should just be left alone. By allowing a range of religions in an one area you have to be able to accept the different practices that comes with all of them. It is not fair to stop someone else's rituals because your religion does not believe in it.

Today is FRIDAY THE THIRTEENTH and I always hear a bunch of superstitious junk sorry to say at the least. I really hate superstitions and do not believe in them at all. Not walking under a ladder, do not break a mirror or you get seven years bad luck, or how about the whole do not let a broom touch your feet or either you will never get married or you will go to jail. It is all soooooo stupid and I'm sorry if this offends anyone. I don't believe that some mirror or a broom will determine my faith. My faith is in God, so he is the only one that will decide what happens in my life and where I go. I also know that many Christians are superstitious and that does not make much sense to me at all. If your faith and strong belief in God then I think they have no business worrying about what might happen from walking under some ladder. I don't really have to deal with it a lot so I can not truly say that I am getting tired of it or something, but I do have like four managers at work who are superstitious and when it is brought up it can be very annoying. As I said before, to whom ever is reading this I do apologize if it offends anyone but I just thought that I would share my opinion about it today being what it is.

I do think that this a very serious problem and I would happen to know kind of first hand. My mother was abused when she was with my father and I had to see either his acts of abuse or my mothers outcomes a few times in my life. Its hard to deal with especially when you are young and see your parents dealing with that. It should be taken way more serious than it has been a lot of times this abuse can end in a death or bodily damage. I do also know that when someone is being abused it is not as easy it would appear to just leave. Too many feelings and thoughts are involved and to the outside person that is the obvious solution and is probably what the victim should do but it is not at all that easy. Saying this I definitely don't think that any victim should be slandered for staying in a relationship when abuse has occurred. It's a very serious topic and hard to deal with for everyone invloved and even the relatives of the two. You never really know how to help or what to say, most times people come on too strong when attempting to help out and end up pushing the vicitim towards the abuser even more. They have to be careful and go about helping the victim very diligently and get real advise and help from professionals who actually know what they are talking about. Most times one's feelings take over and drown out what really should be going on. Supposed love will make someone stay although it is clear that they are in danger. Your brain is made for thinking and making decisions, not your heart. It can only tell you what it wants, but what you want is certainly not what you need.

For the past couple of weeks I have been coming to some very important realizations. I now see and truly know now that you really can not plan out neither the way you want it or the way you expect it to. Trying to force things to go the way you want it, it never works out that way so you have to just let things happen and play out the way they are. People really can not navigate life and have things go the way you want it. Just the other day I found that when I tried to prevent something from happening it only makes it happen and even faster than it probably would have. It's very weird to see that your own self can be the cause of exactly what you did not want to happen. Life is crazy and you just have to go with the wind and be able to deal with it and accept the things that come with it. Well thanks for listening. Goodbye!